Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Auld Lang something or other

Well friends, here we are at the end of 2010.  Really?  How did this year go by so fast?  It seemed like winter would never end and then once March arrived, the year flew by so fast.  Maybe it's me getting old, but how does it happen?  How does time speed up like that?  Sigh.....

This year has had it's ups and downs (less downs now that I am medicated--haha!)--outlaw troubles still abound-(-let's not even talk about how rotten they were about the holidays this year!) and I'm sure 2011 won't change that a bit.  Hubby is still enjoying his job, my work is getting busier--which is a huge relief to me that it won't be going under anytime soon.  I may be running about like a loon at work with so much to do, but at least I am employed and really do like 99.9% of the people I work with :)

2011 has some fun things coming and I cannot wait--I have a big event coming up in about 2 weeks that I will share with you once it happens.  I'm excited, but terribly nervous as well--it's kind of a big thing and I just hope all goes smooth with it.

I don't make resolutions--it just sets you up for failure--so I will just try to be the best "Lurker Girl" that I can be once again. 

I wish you all peace and happiness, prosperity and love, and most of all, a wonderful and blessed New Year!

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

UGH! I know, I know--major blog fail!

OK--so here is my official Mea Culpa!  I'm sorry for abandoning my blog for over 3 months.  It's just that life is moving waaay too fast for my liking lately and time is just slip, slip slipping away....

So much has gone on since August--DD has started the 4th grade--and I'm glad she is so smart so she can teach me how to do her math homework so I can "check" it for her when she is done.  What the hell has happened with Math?  Since when are "estimates" ok when it comes to math?  Math is finite--or at least it used to be.  And Algebra already?  Blah--kill me!

DD is also still doing her horseback riding lessons and loving every minute of it--she is quite good actually.  Inher first competition, she won 2 blue ribbons and a 3rd and a 5th!  Good job kiddo--I'm so glad she has found her "thing".  She is never happier than when she is on a horse.

In outlaw news....

We survived another crazy Thanksgiving with the out-laws.  I'm sure we are on the major shit list because everyone has been informed that we are not buying ANYTHING for the adult bros and siss on his side.  We are taking care of his parents and the nieces and nephew--but we have just removed ourselves all together from the stupidity of the "others".  We are much happier in making this decision--especially after what happened at the "after dinner meeting of the imbeciles" that comes once the Thanksgiving meal is over.

Anyone who has been reading for a while knows about the "lists" that must be provided of things you want for Christmas.  Which is bad enough for the Children, but when the grown adults come with their list of greed, it's sickening.  This year was banner--because no one could really come up with anything they "needed", they just decided to go thru all the ads in the Thanksgiving paper and write down what they thought would be cool to get. 

WTF???????????  That is what we used to do when we were 6 years old and the JC Penny catalog showed up---not what you do as a grown up.  It just makes me sick.  The topper is from the husband of SIL #2.  He basically asked for cash!  They have no money to put clothes on their kid that fit or fix their broken down POS cars, but he wants to buy a gun (because he works in a pawn shop and feels he needs to pack some "good heat").  So he said that his number one & only thing on his list this year was a Visa Gift Card.  WTF! AGAIN! 

SOOO Glad we are not going to the family party this year (hubby has to work and they won't change the date or time) so I will happily send the gifts in the mail to the little kids and not give their crazy another thought!!

and in other news...

A big F-YOU to the idots at Aetna Insurance.  I come home the other day to mail from them addressed to my deceased Step-Father!  They would LOVE to set up a time to discuss his medicare part B needs.  OH REALLY?  What a nice slap in the face to get mail for him on the upcoming anniversary of his death.  Thanks a lot Aetna--it's hard enough around the holidays for us, but you just keep rubbing salt in the wounds!  Hubby says that I should call and set up an appointment and make them feel like shit when they come out and I present them with his death certificate. but I'm not that hateful (or am I?  Hmm...)  What is weird is that Bud never lived with us and the only things I had sent her with his name on them were the life insurance payouts and the death certificates--so how in the hell did Aetna get their hands on his info???  Stupid computers!  Oh--and just for the record--a piece of advice--never have life insurance payouts or "final arrangment" things sent to the home of the deceased--even if that is where the benficiary lives--idiot theiving assholes of the world will "stalk" your mailbox looking for that type of crap--that is why we had it all sent to my house.

Well--since the odds are good that I will have major "fail" when it comes to this blog, I better tell you Merry Chirstmas now--may you have peaceful and blessed times in your homes this holiday season!!

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Birfday Prezzie for ME!

OK--so after lusting for one of these babies for a long time--and getting super jealous that my girl Kelley (and her house of Chaos) got one--I decided to give my self a little splurge and use the birthday money I got to buy myself a little piece of heaven known as:  THE MINI KEURIG!!!

I am the SOLE coffee drinker in my house and I refuse to make an entire pot just for me.  I love that this makes Tea and cocoa as well--because, as much as I hate to admit it, cold weather is a coming and I just LOVE me a hot cup of cocoa on a cold winter's night.  Sigh--she's so pretty!  I've named her Katy Keuring and she is all shiny and new on my counter.  Thank you Kohls for gifting me with a 30% peel off KUUPIN to use to buy this little beauty! 

Will I regret not getting the bigger one with the water reservoir--most likely not--like I said, I am the ONLY person who drinks coffee--and on the rare occasion that someone pops buy who wants one--how hard is it to pour in some more water really.

I other news, my Whirlwind trip thru Chicago for work and Indy for a wedding was wonderful.  It felt good to stroll down Michigan Avenue again so soon!  I really think I could live there!!  If I could only afford it--ha!

The wedding in Indy was AMAZING.  It was at the Skyline Club in downtown Indianapolis--the Bride was beautiful, the groom was handsome and the party was awesome!  Did you know there was such a thing as a MASHED POTATO BAR????  Well friends, they had one and it was crazy.  The best mashers I ever had and toppings galore to put in Martini glasses to make your own creation--it was so cool.  Food stations were set up all around the club and so many options of things to eat--incredible!!  Even a mini hot-dog bar for the kids who were there.

The best part was the fact that they got all the "weddingy" stuff out of the way right in the beginning and then we just had a big old party.  Cake cut, first dance, toasts--all done within a few minutes at the beginning and the rest of the ight was fun, fun, fun!  Best wedding I'd been to in years and years!

We also had a fun Friday in downtown Indy for the Colts Kick off party at the Circle.  Not being from an area with a Major league sports team, this was quite cool to see! 

Oh well--that's all I've got for now!!

Monday, August 30, 2010

Another year in the books!

So yeah, I turned 42 yesterday.  Big Fat Deal!  I spent the day at a birthday party for a 2 year old--TOTALLY AWESOME!  Seeing a small child really enjoy a party is way better than me sitting at home counting the ever growing crows feet that have set up camp around my eyes right?  My birthday "Twin" who is my cousin's little girl is just so darn cute and I hope she had an awesome birthday too!

Hubby got me a Nook reader that I am TOTALLY in love with.  It's the greatest thing since, well, the invention of the book!  I've downloaded a few purchases and have figured out how to "Borrow" from the library so I'm rolling!  The Nook has awesome features including free internet access (in hot-spots or off your own wireless at home), and the screen can totally be read in direct sunlight--no glare or anything.  It ROCKS!

Also joining our household are 2 little African Dwarf Frogs--Harry and Lloyd.  They are the cutest darn things and are very entertaining to watch.  Dear Daughter fell in love with the ones the out-laws have and I figured, heck, I'm already cleaning/feeding/tending to a child, husband, dog and a fish, why not bring 2 more things home to take care of.  I'm a glutton for punishment.

DD is back to school already--she started on the 19th!  It's been hotter than a hell cat around here, but her modular is air conditioned so I don't have to hear too many complaints just yet.  I cannot believe she is in the 4th grade already--time is just a flying by.  She is still doing her horseback riding lessons and she is quite good.  She is going to be in the schooling show in October which is a surprise because they say you have to have been taking lesson for at least 6 months before the let them in the show--but the instructor says she is very good and is putting her in anyway (I'm so proud!!).  She has a great seat and can already "2-point in trot" without stirrups around the entire ring 1.5 times.  You have to be able to do it 3 times in proper position before you can canter--so she is half way there!!  She is really in her element in the ring and her love of horses is just amazing to me--no fear and I have to drag her out of the stables after lessons.  Perhaps she has found her "thing"--let's hope I can continue to find the money to support it.  I may have to look into plasma donations---hahah!

Off to Chicago for work next week and then down to Indy for a wedding on the weekend.  I need to figure out how to get off the tradeshow floor, to the airport and changed into cocktail attire for a rehearsal dinner that starts at 7:30 when my plane doesn't even land until 8:00.  I'm thinking I'm going to be late! 

Would it seem odd to fly in Cocktail attire?  I COULD change before I get a cab to the airport I suppose, but then I have to haul ass thru O'Hare in heels--not something I am thinking I would enjoy.  Plus, I'm guessing that the "bling" on my dress would set off the alarms.  UGH!  I'm resigned to letting the cabbie in Indy get a free show whilst I change my clothes in the car--they do have a car coming for me--so maybe it will be a limo and I can have a BIT of privacy????  Maybe I'll skip the fab dinner at Moe's Steakhouse and just have the driver go thru McDonalds and drop me off at the hotel for some peace and quiet--that sounds better to me!!!

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

ANOTHER Heat Advisory??

So I went out to get some lunch and, just, DAMN!

Monday, July 26, 2010

The sounds of Crickets Chirping....

Yeah, sorry.  I suck.  That is all.  I have no other excuse--just life on fast forward and no time to blog.

To recap:

Chicago was AWEsome!  Had a great time, cannot wait to go back in September (but that is for work so it won't be AS great)  American Girl madness, killer food, a dinosaur named SUE and me in front of the Buckingham Fountain--it doesn't get any better.  Pics to come eventually--but seriously, don't hold your breath--I think they are still in the camera--haven't even had time to download them.

Horseback riding camp for the DD--she loved it and now we have been rooked into weekly lessons--yikes!  Thank Allah that the grandparents are all chipping in to pay for it because otherwise--yeah, no, not in the budget darlin'

The Fourth of July--good fireworks, nice weather laid back and relaxed!  Woot Woot.

DD spent all of last week and all of this coming week at the Outlaw's--this is the most time they have spent with her oh....EVER!  I didn't think she would make it to be honest with you.  I can hear in her voice when I talk to her that she is "over it", but she is a trouper and is hanging in there.  They have been running her around and she has been playing with her cousins so this should be good for her.  I will need to rent a U-haul to bring her crap home next weekend when we pick her up because the "SPOILING OF 2010" has gone on and the kid tells us everyday that she got something new.  UGH! She was playing Guitar Hero at their house last night--and I KNOW FOR A FACT that they did not have it prior to my kid arriving--so I hope that is staying up there.

Work has been kicking my ass!  Which is kinda good because this is normally our slow season, so I hope this means that things are turning around for us.  Been training a new guy and my boss just found out she is pregnant--so let the "crazy" begin there--oh the hormones!

Upcoming events--Hubby's 25th HighSchool reunion this weekend.  Should be "interesting" to see the folks he grew up with.  Headed up to Bum-Fuck Michigan for the event and then off to get my girl on Sunday. 

We are on the count down to back to school as well--where in the hell did summer go!!!!  3 more weeks is all that is left until the 1st day of 4th grade--yikes!  I do feel proud that I have all the school supplies bought already--now it's just the clothes and shoes--ugh!  I vote for uniforms!!!

OK--this set of mindless rambling brought to you by the letter "C"--as in "C" if I can update any less frequently!  HAHA!

Peace out!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

And we're off!!

Look out Chicago--here we come!!  A fun filled weekend of shopping and site-seeing await me and my girl.  The American Girl store is our first stop on Thursday--with a luncheon in the store's dining room!  Then let the tearing up of WaterPlace begin!

There are so many fun things we want to do--the weather is going to be good--but it's going to be freaking HOT~  Navy Pier and 95 degrees?  Whew--better pack some extra deoderant!!!

My sister and I have been planning this trip for ages and I'm SO excited that it's finally here!!

We are taking the train--a first for me!  I've never traveled that way and I'm looking forward to seeing how it goes.  It was SUPER cheap and I don't have the headaches of driving or dealing with idiots on the road--woohoo!!!

I'll be back with updates later!!!!  You all have a safe weekend!!!

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Rough Night in my "neck of the woods"

With all apologies to Al Roker--man what night!!!

Rain, wind and Tornados--Oh my!!!  While all the major damage was about 15 miles to the North East of us, we had a wild and crazy night around here with 2 major storm systems rolling thru in about 4 hours.

I have never been in this kind of stuff in the middle of the night beofre and it's pretty scary!  Daytime storms are bad enough around here, but when you cannot see what is coming at you, it gets your heart racing.  We pray for the lives that were lost and thank goodness all we lost was the power for a while.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

REALLY ?????????????

Still nothing too exciting going on in my world, but I do have to share a little bit o'the crazy from the in-law front.

We have been sent an announcement for a GRADUATION!!!!  Whose graduation you ask?  Well, I'll be happy to tell's for my just turned 5 year old niece-in-law (you know, daughter of crazy sister-in-law).

They are proud to announce her graduation from PRE KINDERGARTEN and will be having a party at their house for the historic event that we were ALL invited to. 

Ummmm yeah....Graduation from PRE-Kindergarten??  Really?  and not to be a total bitch, but she never really went to Pre-K at a real school, it was at the day care center.

If they are throwing a big backyard barbeque for this, what the hell are they going to do for the kid when she really does something important?  Like graduate from KINDERGARTEN???  Throw a parade????  I wonder what the gift registration will be for that event?

Oh--did I mention that we got this announcement with the party invitation on Sat the 29th??  When is the party you ask?  It was for the next day!  Guess we were an afterthought. 

OH!  I actually do have an announcement of my own!!  DD got an award from school for making Honor Roll for the entire year!  Yeah Child!!  She is so smart--it's scary sometimes.

I'm so proud of her--but I guess I should feel like a failure as a parent since I didn't rent out a skywriter plane to announce it publicly.  I should be ashamed for saying that we would go out for Ice Cream to celebrate her awesome grades.  Bad Mommy!!

Friday, May 14, 2010

Nothing Special...

Hello all!

After feeling like I have been living in Seattle with all the rain we have had here over the last 2 weeks, I am SO excited that the SUN has come out and will be staying the weekend!  Yeah!!

Not much going on in my world so thus the lack of posting.  But I have been wondering why the hell people leave SPAM comments on people's blogs?/  It's so annoying and I really don't read Chinese or want to click on your links about the best deals on shoes or Viagra--so please don't even bother leaving that crap--I just delete it. 

For the new people who stop by and leave nice comments--thank you so much--it makes my day!!

I don't watch American Idol, but since Crystal Bowersox has made the top 3, Toledo is being inundated with Crystal fever!!  The American Idol crew showed up here last night and every radio station, news station, newspaper--all of it--that's all they have to talk about.  I'm happy she is doing so well and I hope she wins, but really, not everyone gives a crap and wants to hear about it all day.

The BROKE City of Toledo is having a parade and a concert for her downtown today--do you think American Idol is footing the bill for all of that so they can get footage?  I certainly hope so, because we cannot even afford to pay our cops to protect citizens on a daily basis--how can they afford the cost of all the hoopala that is surrounding her visit??  She will be singing at the Toledo MudHens game tonight too--I bet the MudHens are thrilled that they will be making the bucks off of her.  Oh well--good Luck Crystal, I've never heard you sing, but I wish you the best.

Heard back from the radiologist--my boobs show no signs of cancer--so yeah me!!!  I have, however, been sick as a dog for the last 2 freaking weeks coughing and hacking--blech, I'm tired of being sick.

That's all for now I guess--I got nothing!  Seacrest out!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Pain and Suffering--it's sucks being a woman

OK--I'm all for the Save the Tatas campaign and such, but there is NO WAY IN HELL that I am willingly having another mammogram!  That shit hurts!!!!!!!!

It was quick and I guess the tech was good, but seeing as I have been "blessed" in the boobage department, there was no way I way getting out of there pain free. 

It's SO not fair!  We women birth the children, take the birth control (which involves yearly invasion of our lady bits) and now I have to get my boobs smashed in the torture chamber?  Men invented ALL of this crap I tell you. 

Why don't they have to do anything?????  Yeah, they are SUPPOSED to go get check ups--but no one MAKES them--no one threatens to withhold their birth control prescription if they don't come in and get checked out.  (hmmmmm, could I threaten to close up "the cookie shop" if he won't go to the dr?--well, that would only hurt me too I guess).  It's just not right!  Maybe they should have to have a "turn and cough" check up of their own every year to get a BEER license or a GOLF license--that would get them wouldn't it.

The tech showed me my boob shots--kind of interesting, I didn't see anything out of the ordinary, but then again, who am I?  She did say--"Oh, don't worry, but now that we have gone all digital, the majority of people get called back after their baseline to get additional screening--just because we don't know what your boobs are supposed to look like"  W.T.F.??????????????  This is supposed to give you a BASELINE of what my boobs look like--if you don't see anything out of whack--then leave me the fuck alone until next time--if something changes, we'll worry about it then. 

I am just so sick off all this Dr/hospital/testing stuff--I'M OVER IT!  Blech!

Sunday, April 25, 2010


OK--so it has been almost a month since I had my bloodwork done and stopped taking the Lipitor.  I had not heard back from my Dr., so I put in a call to the office to get the results--guess what--they had not gotten them back!  I go into panic mode--seeing as I had been off the Lipitor for a month now--what if I had to have the bloodwork done again--Oh boy, I'd be in trouble.

Well, I called and the office had to call and get the results from the testing facility themselves--they had ti, but could not give it to me directly--WTF--It's my bloodwork--idiots.  Anyheew.  The office gets the info and calls me back....

Mrs. Lurker?  Yes, I say--whatever you are doing--KEEP IT UP! Your bloodwork came back AMAZING!  My total Cholesterol is 134, the triglycerides are at 124 and my CK (Whatever the hell that is is 43).  The only thing is that my iron is a touch low--but nothing to worry about.  Sigh............

So, I guess the stupid Lipitor did what is was supposed to do.  What do I do?  I still have the script I filled before I decided to go off the stuff--so do I take it and see if the side effects come back?  Or do I just keep up with the Fish oil , vitamin C and the fruits/fiber I have been eating????  I know she will want to run more bloodwork at my appointment in June---if I skyrocket back up, she will know I quit taking the stuff.  I really wish I could have bloodwork done and see where I am at right now with just my diet changes, but that 's not going to happen.  What to do, what to do...............

Next up in my medical world?   MAMMOGRAM TIME!!  Ugh--I have not had one yet and I dread it with everything I am--my mother and grandmother NEVER have had one.  I decided I am going to have this ONE and then push it off for as long as I can.  Cancer doesn't run in my family (except for my Dad's rare and weird thing he has going on)--it's our hearts that get us in the end--and I'm working on that.  Why do I have to have my boobs smashed too??  UGH!

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Happy Birthday to my little girl

9 years ago today you were pulled kicking and screaming into our world. Everything changed, nothing has been the same and I am so grateful for it.

I love you baby--Happy Birthday!

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Mamma says Lipitor is the "DEBIL"

OK--when my cholesteral came back with a reading of "OH MY GOD", the good Dr. put me on Lipitor. OK I thought, what ever will bring it down right? But there was still this little voice inside me that said--"girlie--try it naturally first--eat more fruit and fish before you drug yourself up with more stuff."

I should have listened to my little voice.

About 5 days into taking the Lipitor, I developed an eye twitch in my right eye. I used to get them from drinking too much caffiene, but I have drastically reduced my caffiene in take since the beginning of the year--so I ruled that out, but didn't give it much other thought.--maybe stress who knows. Then about 3 weeks into the Lipitor, my back started KILLING me. I thought it was because I shoveled some heavy ass snow during our last big snow storm--but 3 weeks after the pain started, it was only getting worse--no pain relief would touch it.

I went for a regular check up and mentioned the back pain and the eye twitch to the Dr. She said that she was going to order some extra bloodwork to see what was going on--but to keep taking everything until she got the results back.

Well that was on the 9th--by the time I was scheduled to take have the bloodwork done (at the 6 week point of the Lipitor), my eye was driving me nuts and I felt almost crippled by the pain in my back. I had the blood work done and I decided to quit taking the Lipitor--screw waiting for the blood tests to come back.

Guess what?????

By day 2--no more eye twitch--it was totally gone. Today is one week later and my back pain is down to almost nothing--It was totally managable by day 4 off the pills and today I didn't even take any Aleve at all.

I refuse to take Lipitor ever again! I did some research over the weekend and found that Statins in general are causing WAY more harm than good--research is even pointing to early onset alzheimer's being caused by them.

Our body NEEDS cholesteral to repair itself--when the body is messed up, it makes more to fix it and the statins kill the CoQ10 your body needs. It's been advised to add fish oil, flax seed and TONS of vitamin C via fruits, veggies and fish (gee, didn't my little voice tell me that?) or via supplements. Since my diet does suck, I have bought the supplements and will give them a go and see how my blood work turns out the next time.

I also hereby promise to eat better and get off my butt to exercise. It's going to be hard, but I refuse to put Statins in my body ever again.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Sirrus Radio, I can't quit you--LITERALLY, I CAN'T QUIT YOU!!

OK when the new car was purchased back in '08 Sirrus radio was included for 1 year for free. DH renewed the following year because they had a good deal going to stay a customer.

This last year we had nothing but trouble with the damn thing--had to get "pinged" to reset the service at least once a month--it just became irritating. Then we got the renewal notice and saw that they wanted us to pay $179.00 for the "priveledge" of having their intermittent service. Um yeah--BIG FAT NO!

Anyheeew DH called back in December to say that he no longer wanted the service, what did he have to do? He was told that it would be noted that he wanted his service discontinue and that when the bill came, just don't pay it and the service will be shut off at the end of the contract date.

Very good.

Fast forward to Feb--when the service was due to end. Sirrus is still going strong (side note--the service has been working PERFECTLY since DH called to cancel--no pings needed, no mess ups, no break up, NOTHING). We come and go past the service date--Sirrus is still working.

Last Monday night we get a call from Sirrus saying that we owe them $179.00 and it's past due.


Dh proceeds to inform the stupid ass on the other end of the phone about the conversation he had with "Dan" back in December (yes, I still had his name--I'm anal--I keep notes on EVERYTHING). Stupid ass says--why yes Mr. Lurker, we do see that note, but "DAN" had no authority to cancel your subscription.


Then why is Dan answering the damn phone at Sirrus???????? DH asked and Stupid Ass really had no answer except for: Well, I can certainly stop your service, but you will owe us for the days you have "enjoyed" our service. Yeah stupid ass, I don't think so. We are NOT paying for service that we 1) didn't ask for and 2) TOLD YOU TO CANCEL 3 months ago!

Stupid ass said that there was nothing they could do about that and we had to pay the $27.00--at that point a supervisor was asked for. "MEGAN" ended up hearing the story and said that she would just take care of the $27.00 since we had so much "trouble" and to not worry about it--but our service would be turned off immediately. We said we were fine with that--we didn't want it anyway.

A few days ago we got a notice from Sirrus--"Please renew your account with us" A special rate, just for you--blah blah blah--right in the trash it went!

YESTERDAY I get a YELLOW envelope from Sirrus with "ACCOUNT PAST DUE" stamped on it--with a bill for $27.00. FUCK ME! I get on the phone and ask to speak with "MEGAN"--she of course is not available, but "Antoine" is happy to be of help. I explain the whole damn story again and he pulls up the account--all the info is listed there--with a note saying that we owe them nothing--our balance is ZERO. Then why in the hell did I get a bill? Antoine has no idea--just throw it away. No way in hell am I throwing that away--it's covered in notes of my call with "toine".

OH! 10 days after our call with Megan, our service is STILL on!


Monday, March 15, 2010

Does it ever end?? had it coming!

OH--so in the world of "Does it ever end?"--my Dad is back in the hospital. If my Dad and I had a Facebook status, it would be "It's Complicated". The relationship is polite and pleasant, but due to "crazy" in my growing up/formative years, it can also be somewhat strained. Things have been better over the last 10 years when I decided to let him back in my life by letting him know he was going to be a grandfather--we're working on things.

Anyheew--he also has a form of Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma--it's not curable, just managable. As long as the tumors can be removed, they can manage it--once it's in the bones, he's done. They do a maintenance chemo on him every 6 months or so to keep it out of the marrow--so his immune system is weak. He had to have hernia surgery back in Jan--they thought it was a simple fix, but once they got in, they found 6 tears intead of one. The night after the surgery, he crashed--stopped breathing, the whole bit--not good. He was in the hospital for a week fighting infection and a build up of fluids. They sent him home with an arsenal of antibiotics and drain tubes. He has been dealing with this for weeks--keeps getting more drugs and never seems to get better. Well, he went back to the surgeon and he took one look at his stomach and admitted him directly to the hospital. It has been determined that he has STAPH!!!! SO they are going to have to go in and clean him out--more surgery ugh! I feel so bad for him to have to go thru all of this. His wife is very good to keep us posted on everything going on and I feel bad for her too. She is a good woman and they have been thru so much since they got married, but their faith is strong and they depend on it to get them thru.

On the "you had it coming" front: DD and I had to haul our ass up to a birthday party for 5 year old niece yesterday. She is the child of "you must spend money to prove your love" sister in law. The party was fine and then it came time to open up the gifts--they opened up everything from the guests and that went fairly quickly--all the usual kid crap. THEN it came time to open up the MOUNTAIN of presents left over that were from the parents of the child--I counted 25 gifts and then couldn't see the rest and gave up. The SIL could tell that the crowd was getting bored with the over abundance of crazy going on, so they decided to have Niece-in-law open up her "BIG" gift from them. There was a huge build up to this gift--that it had to be for last, because she would ignore EVERYTHING ELSE and go nuts when she saw this thing. Well, you could have heard a pin drop in the room when it came time to open up THE BIG ONE.

They bought their 5 year old a REAL ELECTRIC GUITAR COMPLETE WITH AMPLIFIER. IT was some limited edition Disney Hannah Montana Guitar--it weighed more than the kid and she couldn't even pick it up. NIL took one look at it, turned around and started to play with the SpongeBob bath set she got--demanding that she get to play with the washcloths! God love that little kid--way to go for the dollar sponge and ignore the $200.00 dollar gift!!! Needless to say the parents were doing everything under the sun to get her to play with it and she had no interest! That's what you get I guess.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Progress!! and did I mention that I'm sick of Dr's already?

Well yippie yahoo!! My blood pressure has consistantly been in the upper oneteens/70--118/70 seems to be a popular number over the last few days! I think the doctor will be very happy at my check up next week.

Speaking of Dr's--I have my BP check up, the Gyno, the Eye Dr AND more bloodwork all to be done next week. I will be so sick of Dr's by next Thursday that I will want to puke. Literally just about every single part of my body will have the once over next week--waahoo! Crap--that's a lot of co-pays to shell out too. UGH!

In other not so exciting news, we survived the great "Griswald Family mini-reunion" of 2010 at Frankenmuth. We actually had a good time--with no bloodshed--awesome! My MIL sent a picture that was taken of almost the whole group in front of the "Cheez-Haus"--it's so totally tourist that I'll have to post it some time. The whole lot of us standing in front of a block of cheese and a mouse head--ROCK ON!

I also heard back from my neighbor about what went on with my "lack of" job offer. The chick in Germany--who my group would actually be reporting to had her 2nd nervous breakdown. The guy who was assigned to fill in for her whilst she spends time in a padded room didn't like the direction she was taking the group and has decided to restructure it--so everything truely is on hold for the time being. I wonder if I sent her a Zoloft care pacakge, she could get better quicker and get back to hiring me?? hmmmmm....but I REALLY like myself on Zoloft--think I'll keep it all for me :)

My sister and I have decided to take our girls to the American Girl Store in Chicago this summer--I cannot wait, but DAMN, Chicago is expensive to stay on the "Mile". We'll have to figure it all out--but it should be a great time--anyone with ideas of what else we should do while we are there, let me know--we'll be there for 3 days.

Ok--I'm out!!

Thursday, February 25, 2010

My world according to JUNG


ESTJ - "Administrator". Much in touch with the external environment. Very responsible. Pillar of strength. 8.7% of total population.
Free Jung Personality Test (similar to Myers-Briggs/MBTI)

It further explained me with this little bit of information:

organized, group oriented, focused, conventional, leader, emotionally stable, anal, attention seeking, planner, realistic, fearless, responsible, finisher, decisive, norm following, respects authority, punctual, hard working, stiff, self confident, thinks rules and regulations are important, follows the rules, clean, outgoing, social, content, does not like being alone, normal, regular, does not like weird or strange people / things - intolerant of differences, strict, disciplined, aggressive, assertive, content, happy, proper, formal, strict with self, meticulous, strong sense of purpose

Yeah--hit the nail on the head.

Friday, February 19, 2010

Life is crazy, but with Zoloft, you don't care!

**Wiping away cobwebs and clearing away the dust*******

Sorry for my lack of posting--I don't think anyone was too concerned---but this has been one crazy month for Lurker!

Work is, as usual, kicking my butt--it's hard out here to be a Project Manager during busy season. I'm running around like a chicken and I now have to start training a new Sales Rep next week--yikes. So much to do, so little time. I'm back to 40 hours a week thank God--I need the money and the hours in the day to get things done.

In other news, I finally decided to go to the doctor about my racing heart and anxiety issues. There is a reason I never go to the doctor unless I am dying--it's because they find crap wrong with you!!!!

I have gone from a 41 year old to a 61 year old seemingly over night. From taking only one itty bitty birthcontrol pill a day for the last million years to now taking blood pressure pills, Lipitor, Zoloft and the BC every day! What the hell! You might as well get me a cane or one of those walker things--except I'm super lazy, so go ahead and just order me the hover round scooter!

My blood pressure is 150's/90's! Yikes!! My Cholesterol is in the 240 range--with the good stuff being only 44. I'm falling apart. The good news is that after 3 weeks on the Metoprolol, my BP is down to the 130's/70's which is much improved, but I have to get that top number down still. I don't get the Cholesterol checked until the middle of March, but I'll keep you posted. The BEST part though is the Zoloft!!! Mamma doesn't give a SHIT about anything anymore--it's AWESOME!

I think that more than anything has helped my blood pressure--I just don't have the anxiety and worries and the "Crazy" going on anymore. I miss this person--I remember her-- and it's been a while since I've had her good company. The last 2-3 years of my life have been so full of stress and worry but I feel like I have a better grip on things now. I felt like such a failure having to go on "nerve pills", but my doctor told me that it's nothing to be ashamed of--why live a miserable life when there are ways to help you? I agree!!

ON the work front, I've had some bummer news--well, not with my current job, but with a potential job. I got a lead in on a great opportunity and went thru the ringer with phone interview, in person interview and then a 3 hour panel interview only to get a call last night that they are not currently going to fill the position.


Excuse me--if I sucked or wasn't the right fit--just come out and tell me. I have my big girl panties on, I can deal with it. I know there are people more qualified or better than I am--just don't pull bullshit on me. I was told that due to some "just decided upon" restructuring, they are not in a position to fill the job right now--if that is true, I think I'm even more pissed than being told I suck. I mean, I put a LOT of effort into these multiple job interviews and even burned a vacation day. I know I was not the only person who interviewed either--so they wasted the time of many other people--including internal people who had to take the time to meet with us. Whatever--maybe it was just not meant to be.

I'll take the learning experience for what it's like out there to interview in these kind of times--I have not had an interview in 11 years, so it was quite an eye opener to see how things have changed.

In family news, we are getting together with the outlaws--EVERYONE--for the first time this weekend since all the shit went down around the holidays. There is a mini family reunion going on--God help me, I REALLY need to be drunk for this--but I'm not supposed to drink that much on these meds--God is REALLY testing me with this. So that will be for some interesting fodder for another blog post. I promise not to take a month to come back!!!

Friday, January 15, 2010

Common Courtesy Rules ......

Common Courtesy Rules Because My Ass Has Had Enough of YOURS!!!!

1. If you're in the left lane, and everybody's passing you on the right,
that means you need to get the fuck out of the left lane, genius.

2. If you stop to talk in the store, get your fat ass out of the middle
of the aisle. If you don't, and someone politely says, "Excuse me" to
get through, you have no right to look at them like they just shit in
your coffee.

3. Walk on the right side of the aisle. Works like a charm, just
like they taught you in kindergarten.

4. If you're stuck in a line of cars behind someone who needs to read
rule number one above, but you're not the poor slob right behind the
asshole, tailgating, flashing your high-beams, hitting the horn or
giving the finger will not help. The poor slob that's in front of you can't go
any faster than the shithead in front of him. Chill the fuck out.

5. Hang the fuck up and drive.

6. Four-wheel drive means you can probably get going when it's snowing.
However, it doesn't mean that you can stop, nor does it give you the
right to drive like a fucking maniac and cause problems for people who don't
have four wheel drive.

7. If you're someone who can't buy a clue and still has to drive in the
left lane all the time because you're afraid to change lanes, stay the
fuck home or ride the damn bus.

8. The next time you cut a corner, rather than turning into your own
lane, realize that if you're in an accident, it will be your fault.
More importantly, if you hit someone and you're not injured in the accident,
don't be surprised if they beat the shit out of you for being stupid.

9. If it's raining, or snowing, or foggy, or dark, turn your headlights
on, and use the low beams. High beams just reflect the fog, blind the
other drivers, and prove to the world that you're a stupid fuck.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Getting over it....and the beginning of 2010

OK--so in a previous post, it was discussed that there had been a "meeting of the minds" between the hubster and the outlaws. I guess they have decided that, yes, they have ignored DD enough and they will try and be better grandparents.

It has also been decided (by them) that I will just "exist" as something they have to deal with. I will be the "elephant in the room" if you will. They will not make direct contact with me--as they feel that I am actually the one to blame for everything--but will deal with me on an as needed basis. I have big enough shoulders to accept this burden so that my husband and daughter can have a relationship with them. It's fine with me actually. We all know where we stand now and that is cool.

They stopped by on their way down to Indy for Christmas--they spent about 2 hours here--giving DD her presents and we then went to lunch and off they went. They called on Christmas day--spoke to DD when she answered the phone, spoke to DH and that was that. You would be proud of me--I didn't ask a single thing about what they said--I'm playing my role very well.

In other piss me off news--our furnace is doing stupid crap again and I have a call into the repair dudes--it's not an emergency at this point, but they better call me first thing tomorrow or I will find someone else to come out. I'm sick of this damn house crap--our builder SUCKS and used cheap crap. I don't have 5K for a new furnace, but by the time I do all these damn repairs, I might have well just bought a new/better one. Oh--did I mention that the warranty on the parts they put in when it died last time just expired--F My Life! It's 8 freaking degrees here and I don't dare keep the furnace over 65 degrees or it never shuts off--I think something is wrong with the thermostat--that should cost a pretty penny.

BFF fell and broke her shoulder at work the other night---this was supposed to be a better year for her--some great new changes coming soon, but it seems like 2009 had some left over shit to throw her way. 2010 is supposed to be better right? Not so far. UGH!

My anxiety is running at full throttle as well. I know I have to get to the doctor to deal with the heart crazy I have been pain, but I am sure my blood pressure is out of control and I keep having times of where it feels like my heart is going to pound out of my chest.-- I'm a scared to go, heart issues run in the family and I don't really want to hear that I have them too. I've lost and kept off 35lbs and I don't think that helped me one bit--I didn't have these problems before, but now it's just crazy.

Some people (ie my family members) have suggested that I would have a better outlook and a way to deal with the stresses in my life if I just improved my relationship with God. Um OK. In over 8 years, I have only set foot in a church for funerals/weddings and one time at a homeless shelter I volunteered at. I'm not sure that I am a religious person anymore. I believe in God, I feel "spiritual", but I am not sure the arms of the Catholic church are where I can find solace anymore. I'm not even sure that so called organized religion is for me--hard line churches don't appeal, "feel good" churches seem more "culty" to me that anything. I'm not sure what I am looking for.

My Grandmother is on my ass because I had DD baptised Catholic and I am not pursuing any religious instruction for her--the woman is 94 years old and does not understand that I no longer agree with the doctrine and will not force my DD into something that I cannot agree with. UGH--it sucks--and the guilt I get thrown at me as the oldest grandchild is worse--Catholic guilt is right up there with Jewisih guilt sometimes.

So that is what has been going on for the last week. I'm not setting any resolutions for this year--but I would like to add to my weight loss number--and DEFINATELY not add any gain. I hope that your 2010 is going well and that this is a great year for us all.