I begin the new year 2013 as a free woman!
My dissolution was final on the 28th and my goal of not entering a new year married to HE Who Shall Not Be Named, has been made.
I am so happy to have this closure to what has been the shittiest year of my life. I am finally at peace with the situation...I have spent the last year learning to be ME again. It was not easy, but I did learn that I WILL be ok on my own.
It is actually a relief to have no one to answer to but myself (I mean in my own personal life--we all have bosses and bills--but that is just a given). I am only responsible for myself and my daughter and to be able to make a decision on my own without it going thru "committee" or taking someone else's feelings or consideration into EVERY FUCKING thing, like I have had to do my entire adult life, is freeing. Sure it was hard to get to this place in my life, but I am finally there and I am HAPPY.
For the first time in probably five years, I. AM. HAPPY.
Will things be easy? No. Will things go smooth all the time? No. But that is ok, because I'm going to be ok. I'll get thru whatever gets thrown at me...because I HAVE to and I know I can!
So here is to new beginnings and a new chapter for me.....2013 is going to be great!