Wednesday, February 16, 2011

The "I need to get it out rant, but cannot say it out loud"

I hate your bullshit...you smile to my face and shoot daggers in my back. 

You think I am responsible for everything that is no longer going your way, but you are wrong.

People change and grow and just because we don't agree, I am the bad guy.

Your passive agressive ways are getting on my last nerve.

I try to communicate with you and keep you informed--you shut me out and only speak/return calls to others.

Just because it's not YOUR way, doesn't make it wrong.

Keep messing with my kid and you will pay for it dearly.

If I never have to spend another minute in your presance, I would not miss it.

I hate having to be nice to you when you are in my home.

You reap what you sew....

Thursday, February 3, 2011

3 Weeks and I'm Free!!

Oh how I hated wearing that stupid abdominal binder--but I have been officially freed as of this morning.  Amens!! Praise Jebus!

I have been in for a check up already and my Dr. is THRILLED with how I am turning out.  He swore he never would have thought that my "baby shelf" would have disappear like it did.  He even checked his notes and wrote in 3 places that the shelf would remain--smaller, but not totally reduced.

So yeah for good genes and elastic skin! (He said that is what it all really comes down to)

I am really starting to see my "curves" take shape--the swelling is drastically reduced.  I still have "lumps and bumps" but those are the fat deposits and "ick" that are still dissolving.  They are getting smaller and smaller--I can tell the difference when I massage the areas--and the ITCHING--OMG--THE ITCHING!!  It's that internal itch that you just cannot get to--it's enough to drive me insame sometimes, but that is everything healing and it totally normal according to my surgeon.

In other news, we survived Snowmaggedon 2011--we got a lot of sleet and that helped keep our snow fall totals down around here--if you consider 8" keeping it down--but we were supposed to get double that--so I'll shut up.  It's now just colder than cold...so the snow is here to stay for a while.

Whilst holed up in my house for the past few days, I knitted my first hat--I used a loom and it was so fun and quick.  the hat was immediately commandeered by my daughter--so I guess I'll have to make another one.  I got the idea in my had that I wanted to learn how to knit--and I have taught myself the basics (Allah love the internets--you can find anything, I tell ya) and am working on 2 projects-a scarf and a baby blanket.  I just didn't see an end in sight to either project and was getting discouraged, so that is when  decided to try the hat thing--and wht do you know--I feel so good about completing that one thing, that I knitted almost another 6" on the blanke last night.  Maybe I will get it finished by the time the baby that it's for heads off to Kindergarten!!  HAHAHA!

Anyhoo---stay warm and out of trouble--if anyone out there is a "knitter", please tell me how to join "blocks" of knitting together.  That I cannot figure out......grrrr.........

Friday, January 21, 2011

One week out...

OK--so I am just over a week out from the SmartLipo and I have to tell you, I'm pretty stinking pleased!  I still have some VERY lower ab swelling and side flank swelling around my hips--but that is where he had to do the most work.

I go on Monday for my first follow up and we'll see what he says.  I have been a VERY good girl and have worn the binder RELIGIOUSLY every single stinking day.  I HATE IT!  I tried Spanx one day earlier this week and I honestly cannot tell you what was worse--actually, I can.  The SPANX are worse.  What the hell instrument of torture are those things--do people really wear them all the time?  UGH--no thanks.  Maybe after I am done being sore and swollen, I can use them to "smooth out", but my Deity, that thing is of the DEBIL~!!!

It's not really too bad wearing the binder at night because I get to laydown and things are all nice and tight and where they are supposed to be--but sitting up and bending over and oh, MOVING is a bit crazy when you are wrapped up like a mummy from boobs to hips.  I like what I am seeing--alot, but due to the huge RACK that I have, I am either still going to look heavy or look like a porn star depending on the clothes I wear.

I have always wanted to get a boob reduction--but now I am really going to have to think long and hard about seriously pursuing it--because I cannot run around looking like Pam Anderson--it's just not a good look for a mom living in OHIO....

OK--that is your update for now...have a great weekend--keep warm...

Sunday, January 16, 2011

It is done.....

OK--so THE EVENT has happened.  On Wednesday afternoon............. I had SmartLipo. 

I did my upper and lower abs and flanks.  I am 4 days post op and I can tell you that the results are already AMAZING!  I am still very swollen, but I can already tell a huge difference in my shape.

I have been researching it and thinking about it since last Spring--and a conversation with a friend who had her chin done and some other work done by the same surgeon made me just decide to go for it.

I was as nervous as all get out--especially since I had to wean off the Zoloft--I was a train wreck by the time the surgery was to begin. 

It took about 2 hours and I was totally awake for it--it was not painfull at all--just VERY weird feeling.  The only part that really stung was the inital movement of the Lidocaine thru the area.  The nurse, dr and I were talking, laughing and joking throughout the procedure--I had to put in my IPOD for the "sucking out" part because that sound was pretty disgusting.  I had over 3500cc's of stuff removed.  It was disgusting!  Really turned me off eating for ever! 

I think the worst part of the whole thing was the night and day after--so much drainage of the tumescent fluid and icky stuff--I went thru tons of pads and clothes.  People kept asking what it was like--and seriously, I had to stand in a tub to change my dressings because the fluid just literally shot out of me--I had to massage it out as well and that was so gross--it literally was like breast milk shooting out.  GROSS!!!

I stopped "spurting" yesterday--and only had to massage the fluid  out in the morning.  I am down to just having gauze pads over the 5 holes (which are TEENY).  I think I will just put bandiads over them tomorrow as I am not bleeding or anything any more. 

I have to wear an abdominal binder for 2 weeks--which makes it hard to breathe and move--but I want the BEST results, so I am going to play by the rules (Dr. said I could switch to SPANX if I wanted to after a week--but we'll see).  I have taken nothing more than Tylenol or Advil for discomfort--it has just felt like I had a seriously awesome ab workout and am really just muscle sore.  I would not call it "pain" at all.

I worked at home on Thursday--just put my laptop on my belly and did my thing--and was back in the office on Friday.  I could not believe how easy this went--I expected so much worse.

I am seeing dramatic results from under the boobs to the bottom of my belly button--the lower abs and flanks are still pretty swollen--but with minimal brusing.  I'm still kind of numb from the belly button down--I have "feeling", but it's like when you get a cavity filled--again, just weird.

Hubby is also REALLY surprised at how good it looks already.  They say in all the literature that final results can take up to 6 months to see everything (thus, why I did it in Jan--so I am "summer ready"), but if the way I look 4 days later is an indication of how I will look a few months from now, I will be VERY happy.

I will keep you posted.....I have been taking daily pics and maybe I will have the "guts" to post them sometime--but right now, they are just for my personal journey.

If you have any questions, or want to ask me about it--feel free.....

OK--so that is the major thing I planned for myself this year so far....what could be next???

Monday, January 10, 2011

Something I hate about Facebook!

ok--Facebook.... 

Don't get me wrong, I love Facebook, but I have an issue that I would like to address/ask your opinion about.

Scenario:

A person posts a vauge statement about something most people don't know about--then someone who DOES know about it--copies that same statement and posts it on their page--but provides no additional information.

Is this just a cry for attention from the other person?  Do they post this hoping that others will bomb their page with the "OMG--what happened", "what's going on?"  "I'll pray for you" kind of stuff????  I just don't get it.

My feelings are--if it's such a personal thing and you want the people involved to know you are thinking about/praying for them--why post it on your page?  That is what personal messages are for.  THEN...the other person who copies your statement (and even comments under your note that they are going to copy it and post it) and adds it to their wall--with no explanation?  That just screams attention whore to me.  It's like they are playing the game "I know a secret--and I cannot tell you"--and that is juvenile!  They start getting bombed with "what happened/what's going on" and they don't respond--or they put, "I'll PM you".  It should have been a PM to begin with fool! 

People,  Facebook is a public forum--if it's something you cannot talk about in public--don't put it "out there".

That is just my pet peeve.....thoughts??  How do you feel about it?  Am I over-reacting?

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Whaaaattttsssss UUUUppppppp?

OK--now that we have visited 1998 with that title....

How is everyone's new year going so far?  Since I didn't win the lottery, I am at work as usual--blech.

I had an odd day at work yesterday and it makes me wonder how in the hell my job can be so different from one project to another.....from Cardiovascular Excellence ....to Collegiate Crazy....to PORN!  Yep--made that trip all in one day--sometimes I just shake my head at the vast variety of customers we have in our database....

Anyhew--I'm feeling a little "off", I've was sick as a dog for the whole week between Christmas and New Years--I don't wish that on my enemy...but now I am a week out from the "event" and I have had to start weaning myself off of all of my meds except for the blood pressure stuff.  I think going off the Zoloft is what's messing with me...I'm just feeling weird.  So, I am over stressed and under medicated--YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

I'm getting very nervous about the "event".  1-I cannot believe I'm actually doing it and 2, the time from the decision to the "event" has just flown by.  This is something purely for vanity and I have told maybe 4 people what is going on....I'll eventually let you all in on it once it's done.  For those of you who have guessed--NO, I am not getting my boobs done (even though they need a massive reduction and "lift")  That will happen eventually--once I can get the insurance to cover it.  This other thing I have been contemplating for about 6 months and I just decided to "go for it".  AAAHHHH!!  What the hell am I doing????? 

So--anything big in store for any of you this year?????

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Auld Lang something or other

Well friends, here we are at the end of 2010.  Really?  How did this year go by so fast?  It seemed like winter would never end and then once March arrived, the year flew by so fast.  Maybe it's me getting old, but how does it happen?  How does time speed up like that?  Sigh.....

This year has had it's ups and downs (less downs now that I am medicated--haha!)--outlaw troubles still abound-(-let's not even talk about how rotten they were about the holidays this year!) and I'm sure 2011 won't change that a bit.  Hubby is still enjoying his job, my work is getting busier--which is a huge relief to me that it won't be going under anytime soon.  I may be running about like a loon at work with so much to do, but at least I am employed and really do like 99.9% of the people I work with :)

2011 has some fun things coming and I cannot wait--I have a big event coming up in about 2 weeks that I will share with you once it happens.  I'm excited, but terribly nervous as well--it's kind of a big thing and I just hope all goes smooth with it.

I don't make resolutions--it just sets you up for failure--so I will just try to be the best "Lurker Girl" that I can be once again. 

I wish you all peace and happiness, prosperity and love, and most of all, a wonderful and blessed New Year!

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

UGH! I know, I know--major blog fail!

OK--so here is my official Mea Culpa!  I'm sorry for abandoning my blog for over 3 months.  It's just that life is moving waaay too fast for my liking lately and time is just slip, slip slipping away....

So much has gone on since August--DD has started the 4th grade--and I'm glad she is so smart so she can teach me how to do her math homework so I can "check" it for her when she is done.  What the hell has happened with Math?  Since when are "estimates" ok when it comes to math?  Math is finite--or at least it used to be.  And Algebra already?  Blah--kill me!

DD is also still doing her horseback riding lessons and loving every minute of it--she is quite good actually.  Inher first competition, she won 2 blue ribbons and a 3rd and a 5th!  Good job kiddo--I'm so glad she has found her "thing".  She is never happier than when she is on a horse.

In outlaw news....

We survived another crazy Thanksgiving with the out-laws.  I'm sure we are on the major shit list because everyone has been informed that we are not buying ANYTHING for the adult bros and siss on his side.  We are taking care of his parents and the nieces and nephew--but we have just removed ourselves all together from the stupidity of the "others".  We are much happier in making this decision--especially after what happened at the "after dinner meeting of the imbeciles" that comes once the Thanksgiving meal is over.

Anyone who has been reading for a while knows about the "lists" that must be provided of things you want for Christmas.  Which is bad enough for the Children, but when the grown adults come with their list of greed, it's sickening.  This year was banner--because no one could really come up with anything they "needed", they just decided to go thru all the ads in the Thanksgiving paper and write down what they thought would be cool to get. 

WTF???????????  That is what we used to do when we were 6 years old and the JC Penny catalog showed up---not what you do as a grown up.  It just makes me sick.  The topper is from the husband of SIL #2.  He basically asked for cash!  They have no money to put clothes on their kid that fit or fix their broken down POS cars, but he wants to buy a gun (because he works in a pawn shop and feels he needs to pack some "good heat").  So he said that his number one & only thing on his list this year was a Visa Gift Card.  WTF! AGAIN! 

SOOO Glad we are not going to the family party this year (hubby has to work and they won't change the date or time) so I will happily send the gifts in the mail to the little kids and not give their crazy another thought!!

and in other news...

A big F-YOU to the idots at Aetna Insurance.  I come home the other day to mail from them addressed to my deceased Step-Father!  They would LOVE to set up a time to discuss his medicare part B needs.  OH REALLY?  What a nice slap in the face to get mail for him on the upcoming anniversary of his death.  Thanks a lot Aetna--it's hard enough around the holidays for us, but you just keep rubbing salt in the wounds!  Hubby says that I should call and set up an appointment and make them feel like shit when they come out and I present them with his death certificate. but I'm not that hateful (or am I?  Hmm...)  What is weird is that Bud never lived with us and the only things I had sent her with his name on them were the life insurance payouts and the death certificates--so how in the hell did Aetna get their hands on his info???  Stupid computers!  Oh--and just for the record--a piece of advice--never have life insurance payouts or "final arrangment" things sent to the home of the deceased--even if that is where the benficiary lives--idiot theiving assholes of the world will "stalk" your mailbox looking for that type of crap--that is why we had it all sent to my house.

Well--since the odds are good that I will have major "fail" when it comes to this blog, I better tell you Merry Chirstmas now--may you have peaceful and blessed times in your homes this holiday season!!

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Birfday Prezzie for ME!

OK--so after lusting for one of these babies for a long time--and getting super jealous that my girl Kelley (and her house of Chaos) got one--I decided to give my self a little splurge and use the birthday money I got to buy myself a little piece of heaven known as:  THE MINI KEURIG!!!

I am the SOLE coffee drinker in my house and I refuse to make an entire pot just for me.  I love that this makes Tea and cocoa as well--because, as much as I hate to admit it, cold weather is a coming and I just LOVE me a hot cup of cocoa on a cold winter's night.  Sigh--she's so pretty!  I've named her Katy Keuring and she is all shiny and new on my counter.  Thank you Kohls for gifting me with a 30% peel off KUUPIN to use to buy this little beauty! 

Will I regret not getting the bigger one with the water reservoir--most likely not--like I said, I am the ONLY person who drinks coffee--and on the rare occasion that someone pops buy who wants one--how hard is it to pour in some more water really.

I other news, my Whirlwind trip thru Chicago for work and Indy for a wedding was wonderful.  It felt good to stroll down Michigan Avenue again so soon!  I really think I could live there!!  If I could only afford it--ha!

The wedding in Indy was AMAZING.  It was at the Skyline Club in downtown Indianapolis--the Bride was beautiful, the groom was handsome and the party was awesome!  Did you know there was such a thing as a MASHED POTATO BAR????  Well friends, they had one and it was crazy.  The best mashers I ever had and toppings galore to put in Martini glasses to make your own creation--it was so cool.  Food stations were set up all around the club and so many options of things to eat--incredible!!  Even a mini hot-dog bar for the kids who were there.

The best part was the fact that they got all the "weddingy" stuff out of the way right in the beginning and then we just had a big old party.  Cake cut, first dance, toasts--all done within a few minutes at the beginning and the rest of the ight was fun, fun, fun!  Best wedding I'd been to in years and years!

We also had a fun Friday in downtown Indy for the Colts Kick off party at the Circle.  Not being from an area with a Major league sports team, this was quite cool to see! 

Oh well--that's all I've got for now!!

Monday, August 30, 2010

Another year in the books!

So yeah, I turned 42 yesterday.  Big Fat Deal!  I spent the day at a birthday party for a 2 year old--TOTALLY AWESOME!  Seeing a small child really enjoy a party is way better than me sitting at home counting the ever growing crows feet that have set up camp around my eyes right?  My birthday "Twin" who is my cousin's little girl is just so darn cute and I hope she had an awesome birthday too!

Hubby got me a Nook reader that I am TOTALLY in love with.  It's the greatest thing since, well, the invention of the book!  I've downloaded a few purchases and have figured out how to "Borrow" from the library so I'm rolling!  The Nook has awesome features including free internet access (in hot-spots or off your own wireless at home), and the screen can totally be read in direct sunlight--no glare or anything.  It ROCKS!

Also joining our household are 2 little African Dwarf Frogs--Harry and Lloyd.  They are the cutest darn things and are very entertaining to watch.  Dear Daughter fell in love with the ones the out-laws have and I figured, heck, I'm already cleaning/feeding/tending to a child, husband, dog and a fish, why not bring 2 more things home to take care of.  I'm a glutton for punishment.

DD is back to school already--she started on the 19th!  It's been hotter than a hell cat around here, but her modular is air conditioned so I don't have to hear too many complaints just yet.  I cannot believe she is in the 4th grade already--time is just a flying by.  She is still doing her horseback riding lessons and she is quite good.  She is going to be in the schooling show in October which is a surprise because they say you have to have been taking lesson for at least 6 months before the let them in the show--but the instructor says she is very good and is putting her in anyway (I'm so proud!!).  She has a great seat and can already "2-point in trot" without stirrups around the entire ring 1.5 times.  You have to be able to do it 3 times in proper position before you can canter--so she is half way there!!  She is really in her element in the ring and her love of horses is just amazing to me--no fear and I have to drag her out of the stables after lessons.  Perhaps she has found her "thing"--let's hope I can continue to find the money to support it.  I may have to look into plasma donations---hahah!

Off to Chicago for work next week and then down to Indy for a wedding on the weekend.  I need to figure out how to get off the tradeshow floor, to the airport and changed into cocktail attire for a rehearsal dinner that starts at 7:30 when my plane doesn't even land until 8:00.  I'm thinking I'm going to be late! 

Would it seem odd to fly in Cocktail attire?  I COULD change before I get a cab to the airport I suppose, but then I have to haul ass thru O'Hare in heels--not something I am thinking I would enjoy.  Plus, I'm guessing that the "bling" on my dress would set off the alarms.  UGH!  I'm resigned to letting the cabbie in Indy get a free show whilst I change my clothes in the car--they do have a car coming for me--so maybe it will be a limo and I can have a BIT of privacy????  Maybe I'll skip the fab dinner at Moe's Steakhouse and just have the driver go thru McDonalds and drop me off at the hotel for some peace and quiet--that sounds better to me!!!